MJ, That is totally true....I have wonderful amazing friends! Journalling.... I don't have a lot of energy today....though I had the day off, I didn't get home yesterday until midnight and I still feel tired. Don't want to think. Got a call from ex-H...he said he wanted to buy me something for m birthday....I just felt anger. I don't want anything. I know he has money. Its easy to buy me something. But, really was too exhausted to get into it today. I just ignored it. He said he has been thinking of me all week..every day....
And instead of being happy at that revelation, I thought "So What? What does that really mean? Nothing. They are words." He was planning a relaxing day watching football and eating his fav foods...well. goody goody gum drops!
I'm irritated and well...for me, this was NOT a good conversation. I don't know if I'm just tired...or what..but, in the next conversation I am going to tell him that his mission, should he choose to take it, is to spend only $50 on me...the challenge being it should be unique and creative.
I don't think he is capable of this. My siblings and I used to spend like $10 on each other....just for the sheer challenge of it. My parents still think we should keep gifts to $25...and I am starting to really understand what they were getting at.
Anyways, I don't know...today has just flown by and I am just NOT looking forward to going back to work. I will try to come home tomorrow as soon as I can...just to have time to relax...
