Who is this person?

[Day by Day]

I understand that he needs to be the one persuing me, but I've noticed if I don't keep contact with him with non-R things, he gets angry and mean. He's nicer and happier if I keep simple communication open. So wouldn't that be something to continue? A way to show him who he is missing? I can now block off my pain and act happy and confident. I'm not acting clingy at all.

I've lost 15 lbs the first couple months and kept them off. I now train for running a marathon. He had been pushing me to do that, but I didn't want to. Now I'm doing it for ME because I want to. We will be running the same races in Dec and Jan. I'm feeling confident and strong and I've made lots of female friends. I'm not interested in any other men, I just like to see that I'm attractive to other men. I still wear my wedding ring.

I've gone back to school, made my hair color lighter, dressing sexier and going out more with girlfriends. I act as if he will be coming back home.

I just wonder if going NC is right for my situation because he responds well to my texts and emails. And doesn't when I don't. And how else will he see my positive, confident attitude?