H told me that he has been struggling for years and has been slowly dying in our M. He believes that we have grown apart and I have never heard his cries for us to get help. In my naivety, I never believed that he felt as he evidently did and I never, ever believed that he would leave me.
H never protested very loudly - he just kept his distance as he always did. He loved me at arms length and was never unkind, unreasonable or showed anything that would let anyone (least of all me) know that anything was wrong.
H stated that he was confused as to how come I was so blindsided when he dropped the bomb.
Now I feel that I have woken up to his misery and I hear what he is telling me. I feel cheated as he has not allowed us to work on our M and he has made the choice to walk away with no looking back, no consideration for how I feel and having drawn a line well and truly in the sand. I feel that ow is a symptom of his mlc and purely validation of what he felt he was lacking from me. However, I am getting more worried the longer that it goes on.
How do I go forward with someone who believes that they are done?
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
