Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Wings game was fun. S had a great time being a nut. His dancing even got him on the scoreboard.

Even with all of that going on, I had a few minutes of that odd crippiling feeling during the game. W used to go to these things with us. If she wasn't there, we would text back and forth. This time, nothing. Her sister of all people texted with me (she was watching the game on TV)

W was fine when I got home. We're roommates again. Roommates who slept together last night. Cuddles this morning and kissed before she went to her GF's house. (That is, the first time she went to GF's today. She was over there a couple of times in between her couple of hours on the phone with her...can you sense my bitterness?)

Now my roomie is back in her room.

I'm starting to realize that she's never really felt the need to hold onto me because she's never felt she could lose me. I know she says she wants to go, but I am really starting to wonder what she would be like if she really felt that I may not be here when she came back. Obviously I haven't detached enough to give her that feeling. It's pretty damn hard to detach from someone who occasionally still sleeps with and kisses me though.

What in the world am I supposed to do? I spend tons of time away. I told her I accept that she is moving out. I have lots of good times without her. The problem seems to be that I am there EVERY time she wants me to be. Is that a good thing, or a bad thing? Is she walking on me, or am I being a good husband to a wife who is going through a tough time in life?