Help Me Bust My Divorce

[Fightin4mywife]

Ok, I'm getting very desperate. First a little info:
Name: Jim
Registered: 7-15-09
Live: Dallas
M: 25 1/2 yrs
Petition Filed: Dec 08 (by wife)
Separated: 3/18/09
M: 49
W: 51
Children: Girl 22, boys 16 and 14
This is a classic WAW senario. Looking back I can see all the signs as plain as day. Trouble is, I didn't see them until I was standing in my doorway with the petition in my hands and my wife exiting the back door fearing my reaction. To say the least, I was devastated. Still am. She had reasons. Valid? Maybe. Necessary? Not in this lonely, rejected, hubby's opinion. As Michele indicates in her books, the collateral damage seems to be making this whole process a huge, destructive mess. There's lots to the story, but for the immediate, my concern is our current status. I was served on Jan. 3, 09. Hearing to enforce temporary orders was on the 8th. I convinced her to work with me to attempt reconciliation. Revised orders allowed for co-habitation, with joint everything, just as normal. I got my little heine in gear. I found the worlds greatest pastoral counselor. He helped me through some personal junk. Became convicted of the many ways I have failed to love my bride and have neglected and hurt her. I finally "got it". "Love Dare" was very effective but cause fear in my bride each time the excercises would touch her heart. She would respond and draw near to me, and then after a few days would turn on me with a vengence. I have patiently waited her out; no raised voice, angry responses, or joining in her argumentative reactions. I have just loved her. She's threatened by that. It's different. Unexpected. I'm a stranger to her. So she attacks my character, degrades, insults, mistreats and verbally abuses me. Fabricates nonsense about my motives. Lies to her attorney about me. She's scarred. Deep wounds that won't disappear soon. I believe that she really doesn't want to divorce me. But influences in her life such as friends, family, attorney and her own fears feed the frenzy to "end this thing". Right now she's all anger, bitterness, no trust. Not exactly operating rationally. How might I reach her. She refuses to talk to me and insists we will divorce. Yet after 8 months she still has not asked for a decree! Thank you for any responses. I'm worried, fearful and sad. Miss my family.
Jim