Not Me...Ever part 2

[The Wifey]

(((Serenity)))

I have to tell you that my faith has really helped me through all of this journey. I even went to my list of posts today and was drawn to come here first.

Listen, I could have written every one of the questions you wrote about it not being fair, how can he be ok when I'm a mess, etc. In fact I have, here and in my journal. What you are feeling and going through is a very natural, normal and human reaction to an abnormal and incredibly painful experience. Husbands aren't supposed to just up and leave without trying - right?

The emotions are like waves. They will come and go for a long, long time. You have to learn that they will come and develop coping skills. I had my bomb last June, and I still have those days. I'm peri-menopausal to boot so it just boosts the emotions all the more.

You are doing ok, honey. Really, you are. I know it hurts. But the worst has already happened. Now the only way to go is up. We have to. We really don't have a choice. Actually we do, but that involves that whole insane asylum thing and I don't think I would look good in one of those white coats that they wrap you up in when you completely wig out.

One day at a time. And yes, do GAL, but limit the alcohol. You can have just as good a time looking over a diet coke as anything. The alcohol is a depressant and Lord knows that is the very last thing I need.