glad to see you're getting out. i've been doing my best, but it can be hard. . . it's great that you and W are civil.
ryepatch. It is hard. Last weekend I drove 3 hours to visit with my brother. Last night, I spent the first 45 minutes thinking "What the he!! am I doing here. I know no one. And I don't fit in at all." But I settled in and found a couple of people that I really felt comfortable with.
It won't be comfortable. I know you want to hide in a hole. I still get that feeling too. But don't give in to that desire, it only makes things worse.
And read around. Being served is not the end to this at all. There is still a lot that goes on afterward. If you read over on my thread, PhoenixDeux was divorced and remarried. So it is never over. And I don't want to bring you down, but seriously, how would being served make your relationship any worse? She hasn't made contact with you in weeks.
From what I have read it definitely sounds like your W is manic right now; which means she is not the woman you married. I pray that the woman you married will come back to you. It sounds like the 2 of you have a wonderful relationship. But for now, assume that woman is away on a long trip and you need to do something with your time until she is back. Enjoy it and live, don't hide.
One question I keep asking myself these days is "If I were the man I wanted to be, what would I do?" It helps a lot.
