Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Weak moment last night. My WAW was watching some band play in a city to the north. The girls were supposed to be at the grandmother's house.

After I got off work I had a couple of drinks with friends -- and drove by the house. That was mistake No. 1. I saw a car there I did not recognize. And I decided to check things out.

Turns out the grandmother -- W's mom had just bought a new car, I'd forgotten -- and she decided to watch the girls at our house and I woke her up. I was very embarrassed.

I had to pick the girls up this morning -- it's my weekend. The W's mom wasn't upset. We had a short talk where I apologized to her for how I've treated her in the past. It's part of my trying to live openly and honestly.

I texted the WAW to tell her what I'd done and apologize.

She got to the house before I'd left with the girls and she was in a great mood -- all smiles. And wasn't upset with me.

Of course, that means she'd been out all night. I looked at my phone and she texted me at 1:50 a.m. to let me know her mom was at the house.

So where did she stay last night. I'm hoping she slept on the couch of the friend from work she went with. I know I'm supposed to detach, detach, detach, but weekends are driving me crazy. I'm fine during the week when it's all about getting the girls to the right places.

My head tells me that her going out should be good, that perhaps she'll eventually realize she already had everything she needed when she tires of the bar scene.

But my heart really can't take it.