My Intro: Thanks for Reading!

[RedSoxFan]

I feel like you haven't really paid attention to my sitch, so let me recap. The idea of divorce made me want to kill myself. Having my kids go through what I went through was unacceptable to me. The idea that H and I could separate and come back together after all the damage done was unfathomable. I have changed. Try to stop talking about how you are...and when you're done you're done, that has already been disproved. This is a new life, a new you, new territory. Let go. It is your biggest challenge. There is so much peace in surrendering and abandoning the notion that you know and are in control of the outcome here. That is my best advice. Move on, move forward. You have so much to deal with that involves your W. You are no where near done, this is the beginning in many ways. You're getting good advice here. Stop letting the voices in your head drowned out the possibilities.

A&K, I am paying attention though I admit I still get some of the stuff confused. Especially stuff I've read several weeks back when I was much less focused and reading a little bit of everything.

I'm a little hesitant to say this on a forum full of folks struggling with very emotional issues...LOL...but some of the posts were not here last night including this one. But your post following this one was there and I read it!?!? Weird.

So here's the thing I feel like you're overlooking. I am reporting much of this stuff live as it's coming into view. I hadn't put two and two together about my vow to not divorce until yesterday with IC. For me this is deep emotional stuff. Stuff that I've had tucked neatly away for my entire adult life.