Just so you know...

[bluerain]

So I have been thinking about just how mad I am at H. What a creep to sleep in my bed and with me for 5 days to notify me on the 6th day that he wasnt interested! I used to really respect him, I thought that he was a good man, solid, honest, reliable, but hes not. Not anymore at least. What a lousy sleazeball thing to do.

I wouldnt have allowed him to stay here if I had realized that, I certainly wouldnt have slept with him. And I dont beleive for a second that he thought that there was a chance that he might want to try but wasnt sure until the last day. Maybe I could beleive 2 or 3 days. But I was just a flophouse and a warm bed for him.

Maybe thats why Im not sad. Creep. I told him that he mislead me, big time and he said that he was sorry, he never intended to. I also told him that I thought that it was thoughtless for him to keep up communications with the XOW while he was claiming to want to be my friend, the woman ruined my marriage! I cant imagine that he would have been stupid enough to beleive that I wouldnt mind. She can have him, I dont want friends like that. Part of me wonders if the failure of this trip didnt have to do with him still holding a candle for her.

I suppose that Im thankful to finally know where I stand so that I can just move on! Being on pause has gotten old after a year and a half!

K, sorry, you all had to know that that rant was coming... Ill drop it now!