She's now worried about the cost of Retro (and the hotel). Said, maybe we can just do counciling. Again, she's not into this lets-work-on-it frame of mind. Do you guys know, what is the suggested donation, so I can tell her...
Really hard to not pursue tonight. Really wanted to grab her.
Anyway, put on a really good mood tonight for dinner. Had her laughing, the boys commented on it too. Don't know if it was being to accessable, but it was genuine, and it's been awhile that I've been in a good mood.
We took the boys to our Cub Scout pack meeting tonight. W did keep touching me to get my attention and make comments. Afterwards, regarding my interaction with the other parents, W said I have a confidence that is "very attractive."
I think that what I project and what I feel are pretty different things.
I did sit down next to her too often at home tonight. Put my hand on her leg at one point. Again, I just wanted to sweep her into a hug - just have this impulse that if I planted one on her this would all be over. Well, I didn't do that. And when it was her choice, she didn't come and sit next to me.
I guess I don't have anything really significant to say. Just want her so badly. It seems like she's so close, but still so far. It's a force of will to not pursue.