I can relate to what your feeling. My Retro date is in 4 weeks and there are times when I believe:
(1) my W truly doesn't love me anymore (2) it's never going to work (3) we've been unhappy for far too long (4) my W is never going to change (5) she's not going to snap out of her haze (6) who is this woman and I don't like what I see
But then I read some of the success stories, like Orich's experience for example, and my positivity and hope return.
Hang in there...I'm rooting for you.
-LFH
ME: 38 W: 35 D2.5 and S5 Married 12 years Separated (same house, different rooms) INILWYAM by W: 4/16/2009 The day W requested a D: 4/17/2009