I'm glad breakaway was here to post today! I agree with every word!
I understand why you might feel that you are a WAW, but that's not even close to the truth. Being strong enough to do what has to be done in the face of abuse does not make one a WA.
You are so used to the control he has had over your feelings that it is hard for you to separate what you feel from what you think you "should" feel. For a long time you've let what you thought you "should" feel take the upper hand. It's going to take a while for you to adjust to allowing yourself to have your own feelings.
