Ask yourself when's the last time he considered your feelings?
The last time he showed genuine concern for my feelings rather than dismissing them was last winter after I had gone out with some guy and came home feeling like sh!t. I do have that people pleaser personality and I would sleep with these guys because I didn’t know how to say “no” and not feel bad about it. It pleased H, and it pleased them. (That’s another reason for me to not be in this lifestyle, I just can’t handle the pressures from other guys, let alone H.) Anyways- I was upset, H is telling me over and over “I love you”, and telling me I should get back out there because doesn’t it make me feel good to have these guys paying attention to me? Wait a minute- that’s him minimizing my feelings, right?
That’s the last time I can remember him saying “I Love You”, I couldn’t tell you the time prior to that, and there hasn’t been any since.
That makes me nauseous.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
