If it's any consolation, even when your spouse wants to be in the marriage there are plenty of bad times....don't just remember it fondly or think that it will all be rosy now that you are so smart about relationships.
Thank you Phoenixdeux. It is good to get feedback. I find myself second guessing myself a lot. And I really don't think I am that smart about relationships yet. But I am learning a lot; everyone here is great.