Newbie (again)

[dday101798]

Yes, cynacism got the best of me as my sense of humor is in la-la land.

I don't know if I should wait and see IF the doc on Monday puts me on a anti-anxiety med or sends me to a dang shrink to get my head under wraps, but I feel the need to send a letter to XW to just cut the b/s with the kids. Our crap is done, finitto, over, out, in nuclear holucost. Why make them suffer because now she has a pent up rage over the fact that "my god, he left me, he really, really left me like this".

I don't know, I think we all need to get together and write up a "surviving manual", "tactics that work, and tactics that are destined for failure". And most of all, "what to expect when there's seemingly nothing more to be unexpected". I like it, might even resolve some of our financial woes?

Anyway, an oddity this morning. I found a notebook that S12 never let out of his grasps for weeks. In it, he drew maps and representive pictures of I'm assuming where XW takes them, especially explicit maps (to his ability) even writing exit numbers and dead ends to the house down state. I don't know if he's trying to say something or what. When I saw him doodling in it my car a few weeks ago I was curious and he wouldn't let me see it, now all the sudden it was left behind at my place?

Even stranger, he drew a picture of a figure next to a car, the figure being OM as his name was over the figure, and S12 very heavily scratched out the picture?

I just don't know what to make of it just yet.