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[awest1217]

My story is in the For Newcomers under "need support" for those of you who would like to know the background before answering. This morning I found out one of my coworkers passed aways unexpectedly. This is the fourth unexpected death that is close to me in 1.5 years, and my father also passed away at a young age unexpectedly when I was 9.

After this, I e-mailed my H because after 5 months of separation and really no improvement, honestly no change at all, I just told him "life is too short" and we need to stop this cycle because we never know when it could be us. H could have a possible brain bleed which I found out about 2 weekends ago. He goes to the doctor this Thursday.

I just don't know if I did the right thing here? I know I was thinking with emotions instead of my mind, which is a no, no, but I never said he was wrong for leaving or anything. I just said it was time to move on and take steps in some direction. I started reading DR the end of August, and started really putting the principles into action two weeks ago. I have not been saying I love you or pursuing him at all. I am kind to him when he calls and am as upbeat as possible being that sometimes I am tired. I am also looking for small baby steps.
He has bought me a card and gift for no other reason but to say he was thinking about me, and last Tuesday called me to take me and S out to eatm, which was a first. In between he never calls, I feel like he just comes twice a week to get his father fix and just moves on.

I just want to know what other people think about me e-mailing. Should I have stuck to the no contact? or just acted like I wasn't thinking about this?