I am very glad he making an effort for the kids. It's funny though. Just a few months ago, I would have seen this as a "sign" that he is possibly moving back toward the family and might entertain a possible reconciliation......but actually I've been feeling sort of afraid of that!
If he were to say he wanted to "try again", I'm not sure I would have the strength to say "no"..... And I'm not at all sure I could ever be happy with him now......For example, I know he would never go dancing with me (I so envy you that with you BF!!!)...... but, I really don't think STBXH's subtle loosening up is indicative of anything more than he want's to "do the right thing" and gain back some of his "hero" status that he always had.....ya know?
I really need to get back into my meditation too! I have really fallen away from it, because I have been so busy, but I really do need to make it a priority. I keep telling myself I am going to sit down and make a "plan" but I never get around to it. And now with S18 moving back, it's even more important that I get more organized.
I am planning to work with S18 doing some projects to work on this house. I think it will be good quality therapeutic time with S18 to work on "building a home" together. Sort of symbolically rebuilding our lives in a way......
I'm sorry to hear your X is being a pill.......
BTW, are you in the alt?
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
