Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

Yes, calling around again tomorrow for a C; trying to find one who will accept my insurance.

FUnny thing, I know I am doing the right thing, but I feel guilty for thinking about S.

Good thing is that H replaced the tv in the basement so I can start on the treadmill again, had been doing DVDs and was getting bored. Actually, he replaced the tv in our bedroom with a new flatscreen and put our old tv in the basement. Hmmmm... replaced our bedroom tv with a new one???

A tiny bit of me thinks that means he isn't going anywhere and the other part of me thinks he got another flatscreen so if we S, we both will have an LCD. Whatever, SOOOOOOOOOO not important right now.

I feel numb. Do you ever feel numb from all this? I have gone from feeling like LBS to contemplating being WAW. Emotions are a tad bit more even than they were~ still hurt, really sad, mostly numb.

I just want to be happy again, not for the moment, REALLY HAPPY.

DR book arrived, will start reading this weekend and put GAL plan into action on a grander scale so I can get it together for myself and my boys!!!