My Intro: Thanks for Reading!

[RedSoxFan]

BTW. Here's the previous email from 2 1/2 weeks ago where she brought up the D again. I just ignored it at that point. The recent email feels different. I assume it feels different because I was planning to have a talk with her any day now about my not being comfortable continuing to be married while she is with OM. Was planning to post on this forum tonight asking for advice on how I should do it.

I apologize for disrupting your dinner. You could have called me back. At this point I"m not sure what my plan will be for tomorrow. It is unlikely that I will go to event.

I appreciate the kindness and generosity you have extended to me. I'm sure it has been difficult. All of this has been difficult. I keep going over things in my head and it comes back to the same answer. I care a great deal about you but we can't be together. I need to live my life and find happiness on my own. As long as we're still married that ability is negatively impacted. I don't want to feel like I owe anyone anything. I want to live my life.. The marriage we had is over. It had good and bad times and sadly ended. The reality is that it did end. I can't go back nor do I want to go back to that marriage. I want to end the marriage and some how become friends. I want the decisions for my life to be my own. We do not see life the same or see people the same. I hope we can be friends - honest friends and good parents. I will get the paperwork from the attorney and give it to you to review. I'm sure we will have details to hash out. What she put together is a rough sketch because I didn't have all information.. I will do my best to coparent with you but I can't allow you to run my life or impact my decisions. I'm a good person and a good mom. I have made mistakes but my kids have never had to question if I was there for them. Ever. My request for you not to expose the kids to another woman was less than 2 months after you left and at a time you had basically disappeared from their lives. I have documenation to prove the time frame. You left them and you left their mother. It is very much different and the timing considerably different.. Regardless this is where we are. The kids have met OM. If I continue to date OM then I will not lie to the kids and they will have some exposure to him. I agreed to stop the sleep overs and the constant exposure but I in no way agreed to stop exposure completely. That is impossible without lies and i'm not going there.