I knew I was wrong for talking with W's friend. It felt wrong. I thought maybe she might put a little pressure on in my favor. But I also had a bad vibe...negative like she was looking for a different outcome. There I go manipulating and controlling. I had it coming.
Not sure why you attribute this to your conversation with her friend. That is a bit of a stretch IMO. But, regardless, her email was rational, clear and succinct and she referenced her personal revelation and beliefs from her church experience...respect her enough to believe that this is coming from her.
Friend was encouraging me to end it. She acted as if she was irate that I was continuing in a marriage where W was with other man. She said I deserved better. She talks to W daily. Anyway, I guess it doesn't matter. I'm tired of all this. I deserve better. I'm tired of hurting and waiting and I'm tired of felling guilty for being tired of hurting and waiting.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
