You will be amazed at what triggers your emotions. Ride them out like waves. I've only been at this for 4 months, but it's better. I still cry, but not as often and not as long. People are coming into my life whom I never expected...a true blessing.
I filed ONLT to protect myself financially. I don't want to lose my marriage and my financial security. I can always withdraw the petition and my lawyer knows I want to attempt reconciliation.
Hang in there....this experience sucks, but you will prevail in the end. Take care of those kiddos!
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10