Hi everyone, I have been doing pretty good for the past couple of days with being strong and getting advice on how to GAL and how to unavailable. today however, I feel week. The pain is back in my chest and I just want to hug my H and tell him I love him. I am sure this is because the weekend is getting closer and he is going to CA to "work" and I know see the OW. It is killing me. I just want my marriage back. This is where I get totally stuck with grief and pain and don't know how to get out of this. I am not letting him see me like this, but I wish I could turn this off for myself, but I still want him and love him. I just want his DB system to work for me in the worst way. Maybe I want it too much. Today is just a bad day and I feel very week.
