Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[givingitmyall]

Not sure what next steps are, I am still working on things for me.

You just answered your own question in the same sentence.

I wonder at times if she even notices any changes in me, my behavior, etc, but I also then think I can't spend time wondering about that, can I?

And, you did it again. I understand your curiosity, but that's a HER issue. Don't worry about that. THAT will take care of itself. Work on you.