Did I do the right thing? Last night another good night with H..he was being really nice to me. He was drinking again...BUT..this time was different. I said i'm going to bed..I went into the kitchen and he grabbed me and started hugging me life old times..he said will you lay down with me and I said sure..more hugging and kissing my face..I know TMI but it is important to the story because when I came back from vacation he would not kiss me..turned his head..so anyway..he said you know i still do not trust you(i am assuming the trust issues deal with the let down of l school and the bills) I said that's ok..I understand..it takes time..he said how long..and what are we doing..I said we are doing this..I am working on myself..he said you are being weird..i looked in his eyes and they seem so empty..I just saw such a look of dispair on his face..so things proceeded..and several times he asked me what are we doing..I replied with the same answer..we are doing this...later he said I know you hate me...i ignored this..he said where do we sleep tonight..i said whereever you want...again more or what are we doing..I dont know what he wants..there were no ily but that is okay..I want to give him space..so he ended up going back downstairs..this morning I did not mention last night nor did he..he was nice again...Thoughts? Stronger..how are you by the way..you are my inspiration BTW so hang in there! I am rooting for you!!!!
