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So, last night was GAL activity for me also, went to the Drag Racing track with a friend, and ran my car. Mixed results, couldn't get the tires to hook, so tire spinning poor runs, but was fun to be out with a friend doing something I like.

Tonight, I have to work on the Financial paperwork for mediator, and turn that in end of this week, or early next. Seems kind of surreal still at times.

I have only seen W now for about 10 mins this week, so far, I don't know if that's bad or good, but been good for me to do some other things. With the rest of this weeks schedule, I probably will only see W for a few minutes over the next few days, and weekends she has been spending time by herself. I am not sure if that is good for DB, but I believe it is, giving her time and space for herself.

Not sure what next steps are, I am still working on things for me. I wonder at times if she even notices any changes in me, my behavior, etc, but I also then think I can't spend time wondering about that, can I?

Kind of a DB Paradox at times..