Hey M, I understand, I have one too, and despite my sitch, I realise its still down to me to heal it, but I really feel for you and I am sorry you are sad behind the smile. Its too bad things are hard at work right now and that H is being his usual non-communicative, non-expressive, hurricane of a mess self. I hope he will soon finally let the walls down to you and just act like an adult, instead of always from behind a screen of fear and indecision and paralysis.
xxx