Lol Ali, I am much more aware of myself and do tone it down already. I think about my words and actions a lot more these days I will definitely be aware of it in the future and think before acting/ speaking. Although I do have a terrible tendency to blame myself for anything and everything.
T, you are right I have no option but to be myself and to be honest I'm finding out that I am not so bad - certainly not as bad as h (and myself) made me feel when he left.
Kalni, you words were so wise, thank you. I love that phrase 'aware of our surroundings', I guess there is no harm in that as long as it doesn't go too far and I'll never know if I don't give it a try. I think the paranoia in me will fade but I will never again not be aware. It is getting it in proportion...
Mishka, I think the technical words are breast plate, but I like boob protectors much better I will not walk on eggshells in the future, life is too short. I am never so extreme in the tough love stance but I do see the merits of not losing yourself in a relationship and knowing you will be ok whatever. All part of lifes learnings I guess.
MsM, I think I do need to reframe the idea somehow. I think I am working through a lot of things at the moment. I can’t wait to go away, where I have promised myself, fun exploration and no thinking is that possible??
I will definitely be aware of it in the future and think before acting/ speaking. Although I do have a terrible tendency to blame myself for anything and everything.
