Partner left after 9 yrs - 18months on, reunited !

[AliSuddenly]

Thanks M, Bobbi.. Its wierd, I still am having bad dreams every night (my brain is still 'processing' and settling down from the trauma of the last 2 years!) but the dreams are getting less anxious. I still feel a bit down too when I wake (perhaps from the dreams)but this morning I suddenly felt....excited! Its a whole new future. I just have to assume it IS possible and that I will fall pregnant. I am going to the chemist today to buy pre-pregnancy vitamins (I wont make a fuss to him about this, I will just take them). It feels ok we are talking about such a huge thing, just 4 months after reconciling, he said it wasnt stressing him out, he is just concerned about money and everything being "right" and settled. One thing though.. I did want to get M before we had kids, not for moral reasons, just because, it would be nice to do it that way around and celebrate with friends and family and THEN be waddling around like a tank. But I dont want to put any pressure on him, he would have to come to that decision himself and WANT to ask me to M him.

T, yes ironic hey..but about the no-ML.. he said, he is still settling into this..I said, what, being back with me??? He said, NO NO, this is it for me now,we are set.. I mean, settling back into life, back into myself, after everything that happened, how I was, that he is still a bit up and down but it will be ok. So, I guess he's kind of.. recalibrating??