Dear Sandi, Snodderly and all the wonderful people here on DB
It has been a couple of months since I have posted. I havent forgotten your kindness and wisdom but things have been so difficult I guess I wanted to have a little private time.
My thread is above for you to read. My husband is still in the fog; it has gotten worse. We now only email. I went dark (no contact verbally or physically, just email) three months ago and he has not questioned it. Doesnt ask how I am, nothing. It is better for me; I am still traumatosed at the thought of contact with him. But it just brings home how determined he is to delete me from his life.
The OW is now apparently not working for him anymore; the company was supposedly going down the toilet and he had to let her go (professionally). He has also just rented his own apartment so it doesnt look like he is officially living with her; ten minutes from our house and our D8 school. He bypasses me, wants nothing to do with my life, hasnt even told me where the apartment is.
Is this really MLC? Last Tuesday he broke down in front of my Mum (who is still here), sobbing uncontrollably. His sister is dying and he is petrified that I will take our D back to Australia where I am originally from. He keeps saying that if I want to kill him that is the way to do it. I could never do that to him or our D and have never given him reason to think this.
he is refusing to pay me money, has left me with no money to eat and I had to freeze the mortgage so the bank doesnt foreclose.
How do I hold out hope. He is so determinedly going ahead and he seems to have left me behind. Its been 9 months and I am still in grief. He is still with OW, has his own place now (even though all of his things are still here in the house, he hasnt tried to collect them).
My hope is fading, how do I stand strong? Is it MLC?
I hope that all of you are OK, I will reengage with al of your threads.
