In Limbo

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Was a good day today. For the first time, I had my back bone. We were supposed to go to a gala dinner event next saturday. My wife invited me a couple weeks ago. I told her that, "I am making other plans. I really don't want to go with you. After what you said yesterday about only staying together for the kids, I need to have a little pride in myself. As I told you before, I cannot stay in a loveless marriage." I just walked out and that was it.

I felt good that I did that. I have been acting happy the last couple weeks. I think acting is the wrong word. I was happy. Starting to accept the consequences one way or the other. Knowing I will be OK if it does happen.

I just can't kiss her you know what anymore. I will not lose my sense of self through all of this.