Journalling..... Well, it was a long day, but still was home by 6:30pm. Had some time and so cooked a healthy meal for myself. I think I like myself more when I cook healthy for myself....that sounds weird, right? But, it was this total sense of satisfaction, I think. I'm going to try to cook more often for myself these next few days. Somehow...I don't know how, but it makes me feel better than microwaving a frozen meal!
Ok....otherwise, I had a much better day at work today. I met up with some people after work for a half hour...just to vent work stuff...it was a nice break. I miss hanging out with them. They are located in an office 2 hours south of me for the next couple of months....and then they will be back. I think in January, I go to that office for 3 months! Should be interesting. Am working on a project that is due in 3 weeks now. I am nervous and there is a lot of work to be done. So, will go start on that now.
Didn't think of H much today. I just feel alone and feel....ok with it. He really has left me....and though he says he enjoys being with me, etc..., I feel divorced, for real. Someone asked me today if I was married and I just said No. and moved on with the day. I didn't even realize that I had answered the question so easily.
In some ways I know it feels like we may have a chance, but I have personally never heard of anyone getting a Divorce and then getting back togeather....I mean how do you trust this person? How do you grow together? How do you function as a couple? How and Why will it be better now...than before a paper stated that we are divorced?
Whatever. Somewhat jaded, but just being truthful. Anyways, so that is life. Will write again tomorrow. Nothing major to write today.....
