Today I shelled out $2k that I don't really have and can't really afford for the parenting coordinator's retainer. This really hurts fiscally at this time. But it can't be helped. More debt because of someone's selfishness.
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I forgot to mention that on Saturday I went to a new bible study that my friends and I are starting up, after a summer hiatus. It is on Ed Young's "Betrayal and Forgiveness" series. So far it looks very good. My friend "M" that I met through DivorceCare played hostess again -- she pulled a sneak attack on me then, inviting one of her girlfriends over for me in particular to meet. "D" seemed very nice, attractive too. But afterwards I jokingly warned M that I was going to start calling her "Emma" if she keeps this up, not giving me fair warning first. (You ladies out there who like Jane Austen will know what I mean -- exW absolutely loved that stuff and I got my full fill over the years.)
I'm not placing too much into this, however, in case any of you are wondering. It was just a casual first meeting, nothing more. We talked a while, that's all. We'll see whether Ms. "D" shows up at our next bible study meeting, which because of everyone's schedules is not until next month.
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Oh, and I mentioned in other folk's threads that I had been talking with a young lady of 35 who I had originally met a couple of years ago when S8 was in soccer. I ran into her again this summer and we seemed to hit it up fairly well. But eventually I could see that wasn't really going to work out -- she could see it too. She is extremely fit and very attractive but other than our kids being the same ages, I feel like she was/is just a bit too young for me -- or I'm a bit too old. Not to say I think someone in her age group is incapable of being more mature, in which things might have been more compatible, it's that in this case I could just feel the age difference more-so than usual. We just didn't have quite as much in common other than the kids and our extracurricular activities.
On the other hand I am worried that women closer to my own age aren't really going to feel they have as much in common with me -- by now, most of their children are all grown whereas I still have two little ones. They're worried about getting their youngest kids into college while I am still anticipating getting my youngest into kindergarten. I am 46 now and yet I have a hard time associating my thinking with my peers who have college-age kids. (But perhaps with the right lady I would make the adjustment. I don't know.)
It's just a weird predicament I find myself in as I contemplate entering the "dating scene" again. It's crazy enough as it is without this being caught between two worlds like this. So I think I'm going to just take my time and just live my life, and if God has someone in store for me I will find her when He says the time is right.
