You would be proud of me today. Why, I am proud of myself. I have been feeling mostly confident and happy the last week. I felt I could test the waters a bit and be ok one way or the other with the answer I got. I know we aren't supposed to talk about the "Relationship," but I just needed say it. So yesterday morning, I just said so do you want a divorce? I got back "sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. The times I don't is because what I will be doing to the kids." I then said, "I just want to remind you that I am not planning on staying in a loveless marriage. Then I just walked away.
A couple weeks back she invited me to this Progressive Dinner. One of the gala events of the year at our catholic church. I said this morning, I am going to make other plans for next saturday. Based on what you said yesterday about staying with me just for the kids and the fact that when I do come upstairs in the morning from the couch you move to the opposite side of the bed--I don't want to go with you. I hope you can understand I need to have a little pride in myself. Then I just walked away....
Really the first time I didn't kiss her you know what and do what she wanted me to...
Remarried 6 mo S 12 S 13 S 16 SD 12 SD 16 SD 17 SS 19
