hi hope4luv - consider the small things and take heart. It really amazes me sometimes how our S can say ine one breath that I love you but still inflict so much pain.
I know how you feel when those days come. Had one yesterday myself.
People on this board remind me to soak in the good times.
Let's just do that and try not to obsess on the bad. This whole thing is like a plant. We have to keep watering it even if we don't see any growth. One day, hopefully we shall look back and see a gorgeous huge sunflower radiating in our garden.
