Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Thanks Hope. I didn't get all upset. She did. I have been going for a lot of walks in the evenings. Every night I go at least a couple of miles. It keeps me from saying something stupid.

I have been upset most of the week though. Last Thursday we hugged. She was emotionally available. She said she pictured this would be temporary. She slept in my bed and kissed me a little over a week ago.

This week, she has been distant and cold. I guess it should be expected, but she keeps excluding me from stuff in my own house. We (Me, W & S) started to watch a movie two nights ago. S's bed time came and we stopped the movie. "We'll watch the rest of it tomorrow" W said. Last night, I got home (they were just finishing up a big dinner w/o me)and had to run to the store. By the time I got back, they were 1/2 hour into the movie. It seems petty, but I felt very left out. I haven't said much about anything lately, but I told my wife that I didn't get what was happening int he movie now and I had wished that she called me. She kind of blew it off. She has frequently done inconsiderate things like this and blames me for being oversensitive when I say that I have felt left out.

There are 100 other examples of this going on right now.

I have wanted to just say F-it and ask her to go file this week. At least tell her if she goes it won't be temporary because I don't want her to come back. It's more comfortable when she's not there at this point.

I feel so disrespected as a husband. I want to say "If this move out thing is temporary, then at least put your ring back on." or "I am uncomfortable with you here, when are you planning to get out?"