I fully admitted that I was wrong in so many ways and I see what I took for granted (her love and comittment and an opportunity to be with my kids every second possible) and I begged and pleased with her that what we have was worth fighting for and that my changes would take time. Unfortunately she says it was "too little to late" for her but I am now seeing that many signs of a MLC/WAW (although she wants the kids) are surfacing. It is so hard to not focus on what "could have been" but this is the game we play called life I guess.
I am determined to take every opportunity I can to spend with my children and make the best of it. As for her, it saddens me that while she is "finding herself" that my love for her dies a little every day.
