Is there something I could or should do to give her just a tiny signal or lifeline though? Probably just my insecurities talking, but I worry she's throwing in the towel because I seem so distant, and that she thinks I could never forgive her. Her mother says I should tell her I could forgive her. I resist pro-actively doing that. Why doesn't she ask me?
I think whatever happens in the next few weeks is going to define our entire R moving forward and I don't want to screw it up. If I let her off the hook too early, I fear I will lose all the respect I've worked so hard to regain, and thus doom our chances. Nor can I hold her actions against her too long though. Ugh! I am a blind man trying to thread a needle!
