I haven't much time with the kids lately,so what I've been doing when I am not with them is,reading,learning and understanding. Set goals and to do lists for myself.
My job has basically given me two months off with pay. They've been awesome. I was struggling finding the answer for what happened and why.
All my counselor would say is prepare yourself for divorce and not tell me why. On my second visit.
I did kiss them everynight and stood at the bus stop with them in my past life told them yes and no.A lot of the things that I used to do with the kids, I've been stripped of.
I have been pretty lucky so far though.I found the DB books and others while looking at something else.Found out about my issues,etc.
I needed to get an outline of what was going on first.Got it now. Knowledge is power. Now I can live again. I found you all.
I have not acted like a victim in a month. I like where I'm staying. I know where I can sleep,etc.
Spending time with my extended family that I had not talked to in years. Reached out to friends I haven't talked to in years. I feel like I have most of my balance back.
My anxiety really has not been her, but what's going to happen with the kids,while I am not there.
