Yep, I've read all the posts and I'm there with you all. Reading your thoughts on our WAS really identified for me how pathetic and cruel my H has been and no matter what excuses I provide he's not even close to being good enough for me without a whole lot of work on his part. Until I see it, he's not part of my future and I do need to move on. I too am pathetic for letting him walk all over me. It's extraordinary the hold he has over me. I wouldn't let anyone else treat me this way and nor would I let my family or friends tolerate this behaviour. Your words are so empowering ladies and Julia I am in awe of your extraordinary insight. More power to us all. We all deserve better!