Flicka, thanks for promising to not kiss the otters. Just because theyre cuddly doesnt mean they wont bite your face off! 8 miles on the beach tomorrow, the trails dicey, so bring your boots and bear spray, sound good? Ill be there first thing in the morning! I have to go for a tough hike (on my least favorite trail) for work tomorrow so its funny that you would mention that!

Thanks Kassie. I have little twinges of sad, but I think that all in all its hard to describe my overriding feeling, its not sad, or mad, its mostly just kind of done, maybe exasperated.

I wonder, but am afraid to ask, was I totally imagining how great things were going? He didnt even leave the house for the first 5 days, so he couldnt have been having that bad of a time. I know that I cant second guess what I did and how I did it, so Im trying not to, but the thoughts do start to creep up on me.

I did come right out and ask him last night if he could tell me why he didnt want to try. His reply was "I guess I cant". If hes not even willing to try to figure out how he really feels, or isnt willing to express it then fine. I am so over it.

I think I might sign up for eHarmony if I end up D, I dont know if they have many people in Ak.

And, I got a phone call today about setting up an interview for a job, its only part time, but its a start!

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...