Kevin - If you feel uncomfortable about opening up here and getting some critical advice, please seriously consider looking into talking one on one with a therapist.
I personally believe that the Solution Focused Brief Therapy (SFBT) that MWD talks about in her books is your ticket to achieving a much happier life. I even had a couple of my own thread titles with the future looking theme ("Putting the Past Behind" and "Tomorrow is the most important thing in life").
