Yeah, BJ, then he retreated to his back room and ignored me all night. It was depressing - I kinda thought after the warm pie night we'd sit on the couch and watch a show...
Tonight is his "night off" from our S which means he is at his apt. not here. I never get calls from him on his off nights. He called and I got all excited - only for him to say he needed to come over to get some papers to give the lawyer.
I'm so depressed and sad today! Just like a slug. Don't enjoy most of the time with him,(it's up and down) don't enjoy time alone. I mean I do enjoy time alone, it's just I feel so sad and worried that it's all over and wish he was pursuing me! I've never ever been the one to be pursued. I always pursue until dumped. That's why I'm here. All this detachment stuff and doing for me - it's all new. Healthy, I suppose, but hard. I want my H to come running back and throw his arms around me!
