from the dry season to one of juggling dating schedules ... How did that happen? And am still laid off and haven't even started looking for a job. Foolish? Procrastinator? Or wise to enjoy the unexpected time off with severance?
Desert woman ended up having LOTS of baggage/issues from past Rs. I took it as a sign of how far I've come that I kept a certain distance. We're getting together again this weekend and I'll see how she is outside the desert. For my part, I am low key - I can handle a lot, accept a lot, but won't take on someone else's sh*t.
Hopefully will have another date soon with adventure woman - haven't mentioned her yet, but she and I had dinner and I think there's mutual interest. She's pretty outgoing and seems up for just about anything, which is my style. We've been acquainted for a few years but just hadn't acted on it.
A co-worker also expressed interest. She's amazing and I'd love to be with her, but she reminds me so much of XW that it's scary. I feel like if I pursued, it would only end in the same kind of heartache, but she's so amazing that I'd be a fool not to try. Hmm.... Don't know how to handle this one at all.
Lastly, met a tremendous woman, had lunch, and we seemed to hit it off. But since then, circumstances have conspired to keep us from getting together again. Pursue or not? Something inside tells me she might be the best of the bunch.
In the midst of all this, XW has suddenly reappeared - do I want to go to a concert with her? Would I like to have dinner? WTF?! She came over the other night for work stuff and ended up gossiping about her best friend. Her friend is trying to maintain a R but is having some problems. XW was disparaging of the efforts; I kept my mouth shut. Later, XW emailed and said she'd been flippant and hadn't given credit to her friend and her friend's BF for their efforts. I'm glad she gave them credit, but why would she say that to me of all people? Because I know how little she tried to save her own long-term R/M? As I'm sure you could guess, I had a million replies, though I wisely didn't say a single one.
So, life is suddenly very strange. And guess what tomorrow marks? My 1-year anniversary of the big D. Hurray for me. At least when I look back at my journal, I see how far I've come. Not that it's stable, but at least I keep moving forward. That's all that matters, moving forward.
