As an update, my state of mind is somewhat improved. I have developed a list of goals for myself that include self-improvement and "GAL" ideas. I am being very stringent with the visitation schedule and refuse to back down. She has asked me to do semething with her and the kids this weekend. I told her I was not available. Although I do want to be with her again, even with all the hurt she as caused, I figure if she wants a D, then I am going to act like we are D.
Another thing I am doing is being very positive, especially when we are doing the kid exchange. I greet her with a big hello and smile but refrain from talking to her too much. I have not received much of a reaction fom her with any of this (she is still pretty indifferent)but it feels good to be positive.
On another note, tomorrow is our anniversary. Not sure how to handle this one. Suggestions??
