So update... thanks again. I haven't spoken to H since Friday night. I was able to get control back of myself thank God. I figured since he doesn't want to talk I'll just let him be until he's ready. But, I'm not going to jump at his first attempt to regain contact. Today, I guess finally H missed me. I saw that he called twice on my work phone. He doesn't know that I now have caller id at work. It happened though that I wasn't even at my desk so counldn't even get tempted. I plan on not really talking to him today. I don't want him to think I was waiting for his call and he can just stop talking when he choices and then start back at his discretion, so I'm laying down. I do miss him though, but I'm going to stand strong. Thanks guys.
