Moving on with my life!

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Well, all of a sudden I am getting asked to do social things. Go figure. 2 years ago when exh and I were split I had no single friends and now they are coming out of the woodwork. Problem is that not one has a small child like I do. They are all my age with teens or older kids.

Last night we went to a Football party. Very difficult with an 18 month old and she is the only child there. We lasted half the game. Between trying to keep her from testing everybodys wine and beer glasses on the table, to changing the channel, to trying to pet the dogs I was exhausted. I couldn't even carry on a conversation with anyone because baby was so busy.

Now they are all going out this weekend. I can't go because of baby. They will be gone for 6 hours and that is way too long for my older D to watch baby.

I am also worried about me going out and having negative consequences if exh found out. I had to go to that sport meeting and he wanted me to leave baby with him.

A little depressed that all of a sudden I have opportunities to be social and I really cant.