WAS seeing reality?

[v1olin]

My wife has continued to be nicer to me in the last few days than she has been since the bomb. She went to the cemetery on thursday to visit our son's grave. When she came back home it was obvious that she had been crying. I think she had been moved by the helicopter I left at the cemetery also. I could feel that she wanted to say something,but she said nothing. I stayed that night until 9pm helping put the kids in bed. I also stayed because she told me she was going to pack the kids clothes for my weekend with them. She seemed to put this off until the lasst minute- did she want me to stay? Does she want me to open up to her?


So, on sunday when I brought the kids back home she was very friendly yet again. Her EA friend has only been gone 2 weeks and I can already tell some of the fog is lifting a bit. Now this is the part that threw me off alittle, she was talking about the post cards that she had picked for D7 to use for her project at school. She showed me a card from 2003 that we got from the childrens museum. I took the card and read it. We had both written in this card about our day at the museum with D2 at the time. As I was reading it I fought really hard to not cry. I noticed from the corner of my eye that she was watching me. I handed it back quietly. We talked about our weekeds for a few minutes after that and then I went back to my apartment.



Yesterday when I met her at the house she was also in a good mood. I decided yesterday that I would mow the lawn because I am a great guy and I want to show her that right? When she got home she asked what the trash bag was on the sidewalk. I said, "it's grass." She said, "you cut the grass?" She seemed so suprised this time - I have been cutting the grass every week for the last 5.5 months! I said yes and then she thanked me for cutting it. Then when she came inside and started making dinner she noticed I had washed the dishes also. She thanked me for that too. We talked for about ten minutes while she cooked. Then when I saw that there was no dinner for me I made my exit. I said goodbye to the kids and gave them kisses and hugs. When I said goodbye my wife let out a "goodbyyyye" that sounded very warm to me, not like the previous "bye" or "see ya" or sometimes nothing at all.



So, my problem is that our 9 year anniversary is tomorrow and she has not marked it off the calendar. I feel like she is wanting me to do something about it. But my gut is telling me that I should not. I was thinking about some kind of card or maybe just a few words face to face. I NEED HELP here everyone! Does she want me to open up to her? Will I miss the boat if I continue to be dark??