I was able to bump up my appt with my IC from next week to today. I think I may have scared myself. I'm not sure if I need to take a step back and chill a little, or barrel forward. H isn't like some of the other guys you read about- he doesn't isolate me from family, he has provided well financially for the family, I have access to our funds, he hasn't hurt me physically (he pulled a couple of dumb-ass moves, but nothing intentional), he doesn't drink or do drugs.
See, this is when I wonder if I'm making too much of things and I get confused...
But he still wants to f**k other women and "rebel against societal norms". He's still scoping out other profiles on the swingers' sites. He said he might consider dropping it if we were able to get our marriage on a different track. What's a different track? He might consider it? Who's responsible for the new track- just me or is it a joint effort? Do I have to prove something first? He threatened to cheat, then downplays the threat, saying I made too much of it. He's good at the mindf**k when dealing with me and I can't keep up.
