It is maddening...good word. I do think there is truth to what you are saying, in his mind he doesn't think we appreciate him. I have done my best to constantly assure him that he is a good provider etc. that I know how hard he works... but geezzz where does it end??? I have to admit I haven't been saying it lately, only because he has been doing swat, and to be frank he has NEVER said that he appreciates ANYTHING I do, unless it was in the middle or after sex, and that is just the glow effect.
Seriously... he is nice as pie if we have sex, and that is 90% of the time the only time when he is truly good to me.
How sad is that.
He just called, won't be home anytime soon... that is a relief actually, that is also sad, but I really need my space and lately he has been over my shoulder so much I can't take it.
what continues to stay in my mind the possiblity of him slipping up again. I don't think I could go through that again, actually I know I couldn't, but there is so much at stake.
He's got so many other problems nc... He doesn't speak to any of his own family (they are all crazy anyway) and as messed p they are, I still think it really bothers him.
He does need help and a lot of it. Im hoping that if we get one of these big projects, we will be able to afford to have him go for help. That's if he sticks to what he says, which can be doubtful.
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
